Been a long time :)

Soo its been nearly 3 months and i havent posted anything...
sad times...
soo now im going to give you a brief update of whats been happening in my life.

July:

Is that Dane Bowers??

Been really busy atm had people over non stop.
On thursday i had some random nite out with shawna it was jokes.
Never thought it would end like that lol.
Seein dane bowers on the tram, not gettin to yates, basicly wettin myself and running for the bus. Lool these are days im gonna remember the most. Photos uploaded soon x

No matter how hard i try i will always love you.

Location: my bedroom
listening to: the sounds of dustbins outside.
Mood: merr

Its odd, that saying is soo true: cant live with them, cant live without them.
Its one of those things i know that will make me never get over people that made a impact on me.

Currently exhasted from lack of sleep. Was up with Andrea writing songs,
got a new song coming along and its called used heres a taster.
Used, i got abused,
didnt even stop to check out the view...
Trust me its gonna be a banger. With the right beat and thing. Gonna have a freestyle ting.

Watch this space x Exclusive incurable lyrics 2010 x

Madness

I DON'T GO SWIMMING OR TO FOAM PARTIES FOR A REASON. I GET THICK MATTY HAIR ERGJHH.
LYRICAL LYRICSS

Incurable

I'm one of those things that wont go away. you cant cure me. Im incurable bitch.

Just writting lyrics today and jammmning with my pal andrea. i think this whole album thing is going to really come together. im writing about real life events and stuff thats happened to me.
my old lyrics were well.. filth but these ones are clean and tru.

I am awfully bitchy but merrr..

A little droid is buggy me, pleading to me, to write about them. aww its kinda sweet really. begging to be on here. he is such a meanie.

My biggest mistake was you!

you hurt me.
you are a piece of shit
I never loved you
your a joke you carry on acting like a selfish cunt and trust me no1 will ever love you
hurting people should never be the option.
i may cry at the hurtful things you say and put me through, but atleast i have feelings.
My biggest mistake was you!

that is all

In the long run somebodies going to get hurt....

Location: living
Listening to: nothing
Mood: sleepy

ahhh ive been quite busy for me, havent had a chance to slow down and stop to recharge my batteries.
Gym -Thorpe Park - Camden
good times...


keeping myslef busy is the only thing that stops me focusing on reality.

My life is kind of going in a strange spiral that i cant get out of its hard to explain. I really think theres something wrong with me, i do things that make me feel shitty and i cant finish what i start.
its like i like it, hate it but i cant do anything about it.
The constant lying to myself and others is not a defence thingy

In the long run somebodies going to get hurt.... and i hope its not me.

Been awhile.

First things first. I did not stick to the whole blogging thing. truth be told i forgot. not that it matters anyway loool

since Jan I decided that I didn't want to go to Ravensbourne (my art college) any more and it was bes to drop out due to all kinds of hectic going ons in my life. But at the last minute like really the last weeks I changed my mind and found motivation. I managed to hand my project in but really late and I still haven't got my result yet. hopefully I passed :S
Heres the link to my Final Major Project enjoy!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vLPGojt8qrY xx

Things are really looking up for me I feel relived. the only bad points are my issues when it comes to the opposite sex. erghh. I find a way to pick the trickiest guys, but I am not going to go on about that.

I am really looking forward to my birthday not loong now. Have no idea what i am doing. but before that is the holiday with the girl's <£

ahh my live has change for the better. I hope xx

new start

Location: fathers room
Listening to: Bad Romance, Lady Ga Ga
Mood: content

I have decided to try and keep up a blog, tbh i dont think i will be able to stick at it i was always rubish at keeping diarys and shizzle. LOL consistency or however its spelt was always my difficulty.
These days it really taken its tole on me. cant get motivated, for anything its tough but i just need to snap out of it. To be successful in anything you need a certain level of motivation. I need to buck up my ideas as my dad would say to achevie my goal. To be an animator you need time, patience and definitly motivation. hmm im rabbling now.
LOL

Im going to try and expand my mind, dunno how when or whatever but all i know is that i am def going to try.

the aim of today is to focus on achieving my short term goals.